Bright idea

IPPT!!!

2009-07-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

Oh dear... it's finally coming and i'm not even half prepared for it.. with my injured knee now.. it seems bad..

anyway just hope i don't get RT on Aug 15

By the way, i haven't got any photos from Shing and Helmet's birthday! could someone send me? i don't want my memories of my life to not have any photos on them..

A day to REMEMBER

2009-06-26T09:55:00.003+08:00

Keeping my fingers crossed... i hope everything goes smoothly and well...

Oh.. on a happy note, we just had celebration for Shing's 21st. Really great to be part of your Big-O celebration Shing, and making me feel young again hahaha... I had friends telling me "ehh? you still have friends that's 21 years old?" i'm like not that old right? hahaha.. Ok this is inviting flames..

By the way, hope you like the flowers Shing! It took me ALOT of effort to bring from the florist to my car in Marina Sq...

Helmet's 21st celebration is coming up next!

Sadly i couldn't join in the group for the selection of present as i was stuck in the garage. So paiseh... the initial plan was to leave my car with the mechanic but he would prefer me to collect that night. Thus, i had to fly aeroplane in the last min and i'm really sorry about it. Wasn't intentional at all.

Meehhrrriittt

2009-06-16T23:36:00.002+08:00

Yup, you're my love now.

Love washing you and riding on you.. All these love... Only for you...

Let me ride you every night dear...

Work has never been more breath taking...

2009-05-18T23:14:00.003+08:00

.... so much so that it's literally taking my breath away...

Eve's big-O 21st birthday

2009-04-04T23:04:00.002+08:00

I guess it was hard giving it a miss on eve's birthday since ALL of windsurf is attending it.

TRUST ME, the decision had some guilt repercussion effect.

Nonetheless, i see that most or everyone's having great fun on that day and i'm glad! Man, am i happy to know that the food was at least quite good!

2009-01-28T13:28:00.003+08:00

Why is it that i'm always questioning this myself!?

Can't we just stay as friends?

-question that is so sick that makes me feel like throwing up, always-

Friendship is for life, isn't it? No, it didn't seem so...

Funny... i'm just so sick... i don't feel much now...

2009-01-07T23:45:00.004+08:00

let the pics do the talking....

and finally...

Jae Mien(slang) you made me laugh when you called me that morning... i seriously thought you were making fun of me..

Sign off,

Hero

2008-12-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

It's that time of the year again... and i really miss this period of giving...

Merry Christmas in advance everyone!

I've always loved Christmas for it's a season to be jolly and a moment to share your happiness with people you love.

Surely do hope this year would be just as lovely as the previous ones i had.. For a start, i had one of our warmest christmas celebration with windsurf crews and i guess it had been especially heart-warming. To see everyone again must have been a reward from working hard for the past few months!

Hope those that received their presents would love it!

Things had been eventful eventhough i'm already a graduate with really no-life this year. Hope things will be better next year!

2008-11-11T20:35:00.002+08:00

Dear long forsaken blog,

I just want to say that it's time to move on and that i am ready to embark on a new journey, and new beginning and that things will never be the same again.

I'll not look back anymore which i am so already sick of.

I hope this time round i am able to start anew and i'm all ready once again for the challenges in life.

Wish me happiness.

2008-09-12T00:59:00.003+08:00

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION...

It was good while it lasted... i initially wanted to celebrate for 1 mth but considering how stupid it is to celebrate a quarter of a century lived, i decided to drop the idea.

It's just a birthday anyway... more of a chance me to gather my friends! i love you all!

I must take this chance to thank all those who celebrated for me, since i wonder when is the next time i might come online to blog again now that i kinda lost the mood and energy to talk about my pathetic, solemn life. I had been praying for an angel to come into my life, but, i guess i rather not waste this effort to even bring a little light into my darkness.

I would give this chance someone else who deserve it more than me, someone who probably believes in it more than me for i do recall someone telling me before that if u don't believe in it, u don't deserve it.

I never thought it would still hurt... it would still be you... it was all so wrong...

I'm sorry but i didn't mean to hurt anyone... anyone at all... I am just building this wall all around me, i can't breathe and i don't wanna feel anything anymore

2008-08-22T00:01:00.002+08:00

work work work....

looking forward to tml with my buddies for my celebration xD

2pdf guys rock big time..

2008-08-07T10:10:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since i've posted and went online...

these days, something came to my mind and struck me like a bolt of lightning.

I asked myself if the magic of the four-letter word had lost it's meaning on me,
or have i not understand it fully from the start to begin with?

Once embraced by love birds around the world in different era, had seem meaningless to me.
Song writers writes about them, Singers sing about the taste of it, and poets writes their dreams about them. People die for it, live for it while i do not dare believe in it anymore.

I guess i thought that i knew much about it, only to find out i know nuts about it.
Bye four-letter word.

Maybe... someday... i might find you again... maybe...

2008-07-29T21:16:00.001+08:00

can't help but feel lost....

2008-07-29T00:29:00.002+08:00

1st day of work...

well... i guess things started off well... in a way.. had lunch with my direct superior..

almost fell asleep trying to find things to do... since most of my accounts stuffs had to be activated... spent most of today waiting for something to happen...

went for an interview in the evening... fruitless...

i'm still wondering how u are doing... hope u are doing fine! =)

well... i guess u are... u look like you are and i'm happy for u!

i want another trip before you guys starts sch!

lastly... i think recently there had been another round of misunderstanding... i really hope it would be solved soon... i just felt it eventhough it's not mention explicitly... i guess history doesn't repeat itself, though not exactly in the same way...

anyway... i guess san's right about my tag on life's short... so enjoy it while i can, i guess...

2008-07-27T18:10:00.000+08:00

boring sunday

2008-07-20T23:47:00.001+08:00

sick and tired...

just felt so frustrated today...

i don't know what i want!?

friends, i hope u guys are ok.. if there's anything, i'm just a phone call away.

tired of the whole world thing...
good nite earth

2008-07-17T10:54:00.001+08:00

would you marry me?

2008-07-02T12:16:00.005+08:00

And it's the saddest song you'll sing

When I'm alone with you

Your tears come down

You search your life for something new

And what you found is true

But now your gone

(Chorus)

Oh your alone

And I'm waiting here for you

Your alone

And I'm waiting here for you

All of the streets were alone with you

Well just to be with you

But now your gone

Fell in love with foolish things

Fell away from me

Now your gone

(Chorus)

And I'm waiting

And your jaw burn here

When you fail and your lost

And I'm waiting for you

Cause I know and you know

Not alone

And I'm waiting here for you

Not alone

And I'm waiting here for you

Oh no, not a lone

And I'm waiting here for you

Not alone, oh no when your not alone

2008-06-30T09:45:00.002+08:00

thailand trip's over... it was a short short 5 days of get together.. i must say that it was really enjoyable as well as memorable..

i kinda miss the days in thailand now, talking cock together and all the jokes we shared..

well.. gotta thank Hanwei for being our fantastic tour guide/map reader (also for kicking me in the night), Mingfeng for the colder than cold jokes (and for making me freeze in the night), the girls for their lovely company and laughters, last but not least,

the mysterious person who bothers to flip our footwear before we turn in every night, kudos to u!

it was great shopping in bangkok and that everyone brought back quite a substantial amount of loots, all except for me. i spent most of my cash on tailored made formals.

well.. today is a happy day, happy birthday to cheehui and august =)

i'll never forget the times we had

2008-06-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

wanted to jog today.. well.. i guess laziness has got the better of me... slept till 1pm today and for the whole of today i was just bumming around.. wasting my time on the computer and doing almost nothing but games.

mum's having her ops tml, i pray for her health.

i thought that the moment i reached home yesterday from china, i would receive something delightful.

TO MY DISMAY, i received this letter...

i got my unit posting...

the country did not forget me *smile awkwardly*

darn that white small letter with the all so familiar unit crest.

we can see from this small example that our govt is a strong and efficient one. thumbs up

i saw u that day, i pretended i didn't. probably u did the same too. i guess it's better this way, no?

2008-06-22T05:17:00.002+08:00

alright... i guess i have 3 days of rest before my trip to BKK!

really looking forward to it =)

back from guangzhou today. well... it was all work so i guess there's no pics nor anything worth mentioning.

been kinda busy recently, with IT show and trip to china... it kinda kept my mind off certain things and i guess that's really great..

hope everyone's been fine! with the closure of PC SHOW 2008, we'll probably see less of each other? probably BKK is the only days we will see each other everyday?

on a light note, i haven't changed my notes to thai baht.... bahhh~ shall do it either tml or monday.. i've also promised to jog with me friends in approx 3.5 hrs time... and... i'm still awake... wth....

i guess it still hurts looking at u

2008-06-09T17:05:00.000+08:00

ok this kinda cheered me up a little

@ A Chinese Call center
Caller: Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan ?
Operator: Yes, you can speak to me.
Caller: No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!
Operator: Yes I understand you want to speak to anyone. You can speak to me. Who is this? Caller: I'm Sam Wan . And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.
Operator: I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone ! But what's this urgent matter about?
Caller: Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother Noe Wan was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured and now Noe Wan is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan is on his way to the hospital.
Operator: Look, if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!
Caller: You are so rude! Who are you?
Operator: I'm Saw Ree .
Caller: Yes! You should be sorry . Now give me your name!!
Operator: That's what I said. I'm Saw Ree ..
Caller: Oh ....God.......

Good Wan! (Good One! )

2008-06-09T14:03:00.002+08:00

alas! exams are over.. i seriously hope that's the last of them all...

i don't wish to repeat! =(

but exams this year was generally hard... *cross my fingers*

there's alot of things going thru my head these days... wondering what it is... kinda bugs me though, at least there's peeps out there cheering me up with things like jellyfish head and jellyfish- theme action/movement...

i seriously need a break... holiday trips hurry! i need money too =(

2008-06-01T05:28:00.001+08:00

pun of the day:

girls who don't suck, suck.

2008-05-29T09:18:00.001+08:00

ok here goes.... make it or break it

2008-05-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

start of my papers

blah blah blah... i hope i can pass! wish me luck!

sometimes communication is impt...

best wishes going out to 3 pple out there, especially you.

2008-05-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

i guess it really hurts knowing pple around you, are suffering or living in pain.

i have been through things like that as well... sometimes i dunno what to say.. kinda like.. if u don't wanna open up, it's really hard for me to ask too.

this has gotta be a bad time for some of us... while i salute some of your spirit, grit... i have to say.... things needn't be that way... then again.. it's easy to say hard to do.

just to let u pple know, i am capable of lending a shoulder or my ears. anytime.

some guys just don't know how lucky they are...

2008-05-19T16:12:00.001+08:00

Jason Mras - I'm Yours

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that i melted
I fell right through the cracks, and i'm tryin to get back
before the cool done run out i'll be givin it my best test
and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love
listen to the music at the moment maybe sing with me
Ah, la peaceful melody
It's your god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved Loved
So, i won't hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i'm sure
there's no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate, i'm yours
*scat*
I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror
and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer
my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm a sayin'is there ain't no better reason
to rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
it's what we aim to do
our name is our virtue
I won't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, i'm sure
(there's no need to complicate
our time is short
it cannot wait, i'm yours 2x
no please don't complicate, our time is short
this is our fate, im yours.
no please don't hesitate no more, no more
it cannot wait, the sky is yours!)
well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la one big family
it's your god forsaken right to be loved, loved, loved, loved
open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you're free
look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la happy family
it's our god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved
listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me
ah, la peaceful melodies
it's you god forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved...

2008-05-12T21:53:00.001+08:00

running on diesel... i think i'm just slow... SLOW!

i need to buck up...

taking a break from blogging... not that i'm a frequent blogger too.... anyhow... i'll be back after exams =)

2008-05-01T01:10:00.002+08:00

last nite was kinda interesting...

met with road block when i was out of my house... as i was going home, i met TP with a string of mod cars behind it.. all cruising at pathetic speed of 90km/hr. well.. i guess these guys are probably caught illegal racing or for illegal modifying of their cars?

anyway from that episode i had, i have this rough idea that some of the young TP (those with the bikes) are really cocky. they think they are the king of the roads and can scold anyone, anyhow..

i was moving outta the way for the string of cars after i cut into their lane, and off to lane 1. kinda blocking this lame TP coming right up.. then i was like holding my position till after a while i go back to the previous lane.. that TP went right next to my car and pointed to every direction as if trying to convey that he's really pissed. i don't quite understand him but i just thought he's really rough... and he gave me the "1 more time and u're a goner" hand sign. i thought he's an ass...

young lad in his twenties.. i know i didn't commit any offence... if u were to come right up to me and ask me to pull over.. i'll definately get your NRIC rank and name... screwed up ass...

today... something just came over me and i thought... i really don't believe in true love anymore...

noticed something recently too... i think i have a friend who like to reply in 5 words.. sometimes a smiley is a bonus... u shall not know who u are!

2008-04-29T03:20:00.002+08:00

yet another sleepless night... i wonder what i am doing when everyone else is sleeping and probably dreaming of something wonderful right now...

i don't even remember the last time i dreamt of something sweet or at the very least, happy.

i feel so drained... not wanting to hope, not hoping to want.

2008-04-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

MY GOD

can't believe this.. i really should be a gal....

someone in game actually had a crush on me.... all thanks to dovey for asking me to act as a girl when talking to her friends... argh....

now i have to suffer the consequences... well.. i guess he's gonna be so pissed if he ever knows that i'm a guy... HE SHALL NEVER KNOW THAT!...

this is the only hilarious thing that happened to me... all else was funny in a mocking way..

2008-04-21T13:01:00.002+08:00

outta these few days.. i guess today is the worst of all... feeling damn lonely...

sometimes i really salute my mum... and feel REALLY bad for not accompanying her as a son should... she's really one to be respected.. it's not easy being a housewife and take care of the household and being at home all the time waiting for her husband and children to come home is really a lonely deal..

ahhHHH i'm going to explode.. i'm going out...

peace out..

2008-04-18T00:32:00.002+08:00

tell me this is not ghey!!! well... i guess it's not as cool as this
we're so nice to get eve a nice handphone accessory xD

PS:i wish u all the best.. not that i'm pathetic.. but i sincerely want u to be happy

2008-04-16T06:31:00.004+08:00

不痛

一点点痛的感觉加上一点我对你的思念,

承诺不算太遥远,遥远只剩一瞬间,

一步步靠近终点,再差一步我们踏上永远,

谎言让人太陶醉,陶醉在你给的世界,

我不想不愿不去承认我的执著,怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不留,

是爱伤害了彼此的自由,你不看不听不说为什黱要离开我,我不哭不笑只剩下沉默,

带著我的骄傲高飞远走

亲吻过的双手拥抱过的温柔所有的对错跟着脚步你一并带走

我不想不愿不去承认我的执著,怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不留,

是爱伤害了彼此的自由,

你不看不听不说为什黱要离开我,我不哭不笑只剩下沉默,

带著我的骄傲高飞远走

2008-04-16T06:25:00.002+08:00

i wonder what am i doing so freaking early in the morning~

haven't been sleeping really... just kinda resting and closing my eyes...

it seems that everytime i close my eyes last nite... it didn't feel like i'm sleeping.. hell i hate this...

even handsome ask me why i woke up so early... i simply brush him off by saying "to disturb u"

i guess it still hurt..

well... in a bit, i'll probably see the group for mugging session at jurong east.. i seriously don't think i'll be late today... i probably could get myself prepared now and bum around till it's time to go out.

yesterday i received a gift! thanks!

2008-04-15T01:46:00.004+08:00

Tired...

I'm really quite tired with all this... pls give me a break.. i hate taking bus alone now...

Had a great HTHT sessions with 3 others with talks about a fictious thing called 'true love'

I will never believe in it anymore... i tried... and u destroyed it.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny

That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,

I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar

The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love

Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light

I'll put his picture down and maybe

Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitarT

he only one who's got enough for me to break my heart

He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough

And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

u're the reason for my teardrops and i can't change that...

2008-04-13T15:04:00.003+08:00

i think these days i have been posting about sad stuffs... i shall post only the good stuffs from today onwards... it's quite depressing to keep seeing sad posts...

let me bring up the spirits of pple around me! i'm happy, who goes to lucky!

2008-04-12T04:27:00.002+08:00

what a day... had revision in NLB @ bugis till like 5+pm and went to shoot loops after that...

after which i went to meet my buddies with the rest of the pple for dinner @ breko at bugis... it's really quite sucky the service over there... overall food was ok.. but waiting time was a pain in the arse...

went to winebos to celebrate for seengan's birthday~ stayed till 1+am and went to plasma YET AGAIN!

had some beer there and turban's going quite noisy after being quite high... i really hate immatured gals.... they should just go to hell...

kinda brought me back to where i was when i see him so depressed or sad waiting for a sickening sms or call... it was really stupid... i cursed at myself...

and of course i would wish the very best for u bro! i hope everything goes the way it's meant to be... nothing near mine... i don't want u to get hurt the way i did.... time hardly heals all wounds...

mixed feelings now... how i wish i know what i want...

*all gals are idiots*

2008-04-10T01:29:00.001+08:00

the world seemed to be upside down for me

2008-04-08T00:41:00.003+08:00

fuck..... i thought i could do it....
i didn't know it would be so hard... i didn't know it could be so easy to feel lost....

流动的时间里找你的旋律
转眼整个世界
只剩你的应许
今夜就开始放晴
我身上还有春天的痕迹
尘封的记忆已开始飘零
瞬间和永远零距离
我放自己飞行
在有你的记忆

on a lighter note... i guess it's really great seeing the WS guys today~

had soccer in the morning (darn... ear still hurting from that hit to my head)

after that we had a great time taking silly photos in IKEA at alexandra rd. it was really crazy and we had dogs that were really 'hot' from there. tasted great, those dogs.

i think today was a day of hatred for me.... i have this person telling me that i laugh like GAY... crap!!! a GAY!!!! apart from that i believe i'll receive a hate mail from this person REAL soon!

went to Marina @ Keppel today... again... seriously the place look so different in the morning and at night... but it was a moment of fun and tranquility over at that place... love the scenery to bits.

i hope i sleep well tonight... god bless me pls.. though i think i'm cursed...

i would like to take this chance to thank these special pple in my heart who really check me out on how i'm doing and feeling.. thanks.... i couldn't feel any better and comfortable being with you. i'm not going to name who... it belongs to my heart <3

ok that was gay....

2008-04-06T02:38:00.002+08:00

i guess everything's over now...

really thankful for a bunch of great friends... being there for me when i'm at my lowest...

i would like to thank you too...
for hurting me so badly as i thought i could no longer feel pain...
for the happy times that we shared
for being truly cruel
thanks

just a little disappointed that we can't even stay as friends... it's such a pity isn't it?
would you even think about that?

so long as u're happy, i guess it's really good enough for me

2008-04-03T23:39:00.002+08:00

it kinda cheered me up.. thanks! i think you're the best

little small things can bring smiles to me =)

i was alittle surprised when u passed it to me.. haha quite cute the smiley

2008-04-02T23:23:00.002+08:00

happy birthday bro~!
me and handsome
having fun!

DRAINED...

i guess i'm really tired and drained... i have no more strength to struggle anymore...

i'm really beaten... but i'll always be there for u. this is my promise to you.

i find it really hard to breathe these days... i guess i lack my oxygen

2008-04-01T23:47:00.009+08:00

i'm sorry, i just can't control it. it just seems that i am out of it. i had the worst public trips to and fro to places for the past 3-4 days. i know it's really ugly and pathetic for a guy, but i really can't stop it. it just flows. what am i supposed to do about it?

this is definately the 1st in my 25 years

i didn't know wetting my eyes could be that easy.

and i had to fucking take bus 80 today from clarke quay's Central Mall home today, had to re-take the same route that we walked on to the same fucking bus-stop.

someone told me that i'm a good man just now. i fucking doubt so and i HATE to be one.

i fucking HATE myself

well... i guess i shouldn't be that sad since it's handsome chiang's birthday!

bought him swimming goggles so that the next time we go swimming he has a good pair of goggles :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!

shall post his pics and mine tml

had dinner together with rest of the family, i guess it was great =)

played some stupid games with my siblings and we were laughing all the way. i love my family!

i'll always remember all the guessing and stupid games of tricks that we played today, at least it placed a big wide smile on my face for a moment.

i just can't get it over. it's really hurting me alot.

2008-03-31T23:20:00.003+08:00

evelyn! happy birthday and hope u enjoyed today!

seems like some of my closest clique knows about my blog... this is quite crap..... didn't expect u guys to come visit me in my blog... now i have to be really careful about blogging anything bad about u guys haha! before this, it's only me and my blog... no one else....

now i think i can't write freely already can i? lol
PS: for those who knows my blog don't have to broadcast =)
as for those that really is interested to read about my intimate thoughts can ask from me directly if you really are so interested in my pathetic life.

i think today was great day out.

had fun and laughter
guess... it's the best in a week
i guess i've laughed more than i teared in this 1 week

hey... i'm still a strong man alright

felt kinda lost when i went home today. the same shitty feeling once again. kinda miss my 7 hunks and babes when i left them on my way home.

details of today's activity can be found here

evelyn pls send me the photos!

2008-03-31T00:07:00.002+08:00

don't expect for you'll get disappointed more
don't love unless u don't hope to be loved in return
don't hold on unless u have superhuman strength
don't tear because no one's gonna pity u

2008-03-30T04:32:00.004+08:00

just back from a crazy drinking and singing session with my boys... thanks to u guys

really!...

I DUNNO WHAT I WILL DO WITHOUT ALL OF YOU!

kinda helped me stopped my tears from flowing down, though many a times it nearly flowed out..

and the tap's turned on when i was sitting alone along singapore river... bad place to go... remind me thanks

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

2008-03-29T14:06:00.002+08:00

time passes like snail's strolling.

i can't get her outta my freaking head! everywhere i go, everything i do.

i totally lost my focus and confidence when u stepped into my life.

YOU, are my thoughts, my breaths now... and how i HATE that...

i don't even know what to do now. can't sleep, can't study, can't stand up on my feets. i feel so weak. so weak...

2008-03-29T09:11:00.003+08:00

last night was unbearable... kinda teared a little...

it was only roughly 3 weeks ago when i thought i would found the right person and the start of a great friendship if not relationship.

there was 2 weeks of sweet meetups and sharing where we would talk our hearts out.

i guess sweet things comes and go as quickly as the blink of an eye.

i have been too optimistic.

chanced upon her blog. ok i kinda looked for it too. sorry but i'm just curious to know more about her. that was last night. read some of the past entries and found out that she's really hurt and she's in pain. guess what. the way she's treating me now, hurts me too... it was a feeling so familiar that i thought i would forget after so long. that pain and the ever so familiar breathlessness at night, alone. waiting for just a simple sms or reply is so tough.

well... we're supposed to meet today. i had today planned out and bought flowers as well as did a pre-meeting recce the other day just to make sure today don't screw up. In the end, there was no screw-ups as that isn't a chance to.

i would like to say i love her. i can't do it. it doesn't matter anymore

she's not replying to my sms and not even picking up my call.. i HATE this!
that's quite a sad way to end a friendship, at least keep our friendship i would say, but that would be too much to ask of.

Bleeding Love....

2008-03-10T01:48:00.002+08:00

tired!!

this few days had been really busy for me. worked in the IT fair for the past 4 days... well it wasn't really interesting to blog about since i'm really just working real hard eventhough it's not commission based. i do not know why either... we could've just slacked and worked in a relaxed manner.. well... i guess it's like i've kinda grown up where responsibility is there? you have to deliver since you're paid for it kinda thing?

alright we (me, june and hanwei) really put in our best and effort in selling and working! i can seriously see that from their action. all those shouting and enthusiastic selling methods are one up man.

alrighty so that kinda sums up my weekend. IT fair. oh yeah there's a new member in my living room right now! dad bought a new tv from sony during the show, i thought it's quite a good deal :D

i haven't been studying lately i think this shouldn't carry on further! gotta get my ass working darn...

2008-03-03T10:57:00.003+08:00

-ring ring-

-ring ring-

woke up by the usual annoying ring tong of my phone... it was shiyan! my dear buddy... though in my mind, i'm like what the hell is he calling me so early in the morning~ ok i reckoned that it's not that early anymore but i just slept like 5+am in the morning and i didn't had enough sleep apparently!

he just asked me if i'm free today in a darn serious tone and i'm caught back by it... i wonder what's going on... after i told him i'll not be free as i will be going for an IT show brief later in the afternoon he told me he'll call me back~ i don't like that sound of that...

now about yesterday:

met up with sharon for our 1st outing!

we had our dinner at sakae! there's alot of things she don't eat haha.... she don't eat meat! wow!

i had katsu curry don... wasn't exactly yummy though.. as expected of sakae which i seriously think one shouldn't go should they want a good jap cuisine.

after that we watched 'the leap years' it wasn't really touching but it was alright i did shed a little towards the end. it was still good to watch since it's a very innocent kinda love story which doesn't happen in real life..

PS: Great thinking there story writer! something different from the rest

after our movie we went to The ALTIVO @ Mt Faber but it was closed for renovation! So i guess i'm left with no choice but to change location. We stumbled upon Harry's @ Dempsey and we had drinks there for about 40min (yes they are closing). Suddenly sharon suggested supper/food so we proceeded to the Oasis, the taiwan porridge place @ indoor stadium that side.

all in all it was a great night which we chatted and chatted~ about almost anything, about her, about me and about our 'good brothers from the other world' it was really freaky talking about that though

hahaha....

2008-02-29T09:33:00.002+08:00

oOOoo exams are coming and i haven't been really mugging for it.. what is the reason behind this easyness? weird....

i think i'm the sort that only tear when i see a coffin.. =\

recently i really dig this 2 songs

bleeding love and apologize..

guess i'm into sad songs now~ or is it always?

i guess... i just realised that i'm enjoying this singlehood too.... though i used to dread about it or curse about it but i guess it really isn't so bad after all since i have been having bad luck and stumbles these 2 years.

finally got over her since few mths back~.. well.. gratz to her who has a new boyfriend now and i sincerely wish her all the best from the bottom of my heart.

and there's this one person whom i'm meeting this sun~ somehow i feel sun's just gonna be cancelled.... hahaha oh well~ nothing serious nothing important.. just lose a new friend i guess =)

these days had been crazy too! i didn't know why i said things i shouldn't say or rather i think i should just shut up from now on... being truthful isn't too good a thing i guess....

off to bugis NLB for mugging session... and tonight's my MA prelims.. great... all just too great....

-sign out-

2007-11-15T00:10:00.000+08:00

you just came right into my space and left your mark there..

i can't wipe it off nor could i treat it as if it's invisible for i've fallen.. fallen in love with you

2007-10-14T19:09:00.001+08:00

god knows how long this has been... wow... to think that i'll one day come back here is indeed unbelievable.

bringing back memories

2003-11-20T17:03:00.000+08:00

runaway - linkin park

At times i think back, thinking about the wrong things or things that made me believe my decisions have been wrong. Came out with a conclusion, i've made too much bad choices that will not make me feel any better the rest of my life. Isn't this sad?

2003-11-19T09:42:00.000+08:00

Wow this morning’s amazing… I wasted 1 hour just by sitting in my office and there’s really like no work for me. I’m feel so awkward and weird… the only person not doing anything related to work… maybe I should take my time to finish my stuffs when there’s something for me to do. Just in case I’m so free again. As everyone knows, bosses don’t like employees to do nothing. Must look busy! Busy!

2003-11-18T15:06:00.000+08:00

shitty moods

ahhhhH! actually wanted to take a stroll out last nite.. guess i'm too lazy! shaykz

Indulgence
indulge into the beauty of the game pple :)
[i'm sure hoshi will like the game]

dad's coming back today! yes! heee... but.. i'll have to fetch him late at night.. yawnz wonder if i can make it tomorrow morning.

about the last post,
hoshi: i think you might know who she is but pls keep to yourself can? pls thanks :)

and great thanks for the advice kris ^_^

currently at my workplace and they have kinda run outta jobs for me to do.. maybe they didn't want to handle me with the harder stuffs since time is needed to teach and time isn't really abundant for them and to waste it on teaching an attachment student could well mean stupidity? since i would go by the end of this year.
i like my workplace, many interesting and fun pple. great working area, gosh.. is this the 2nd time i'm praising my co.?

and about coming here~ i must say it's provided me with alot of information on the [continue...] job. lol... ended here yesterday because i was asked to finish up something.

2003-11-16T21:17:00.000+08:00

campfire

went for a campfire organised by my juniors in my sec sch yesterday
it was pretty ok i say but pple invited and some other stuffs aren't really appropriate though.. still... i wished everyone had fun yesterday.

unexpectedly saw her too, was really surprised and a sudden rush of nervousness came over me, overwhelmingly, causing me to feel like vomiting throughout the evening... i don't understand why but i was totally nervous.. still has the sweet smile but no conversation was made :(

had many many dreams of her recently and now that i've seen her, i couldn't even get a conversation started. darn... hated this...

2003-11-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

attachment

surprised? well.. the man's back~

ok so what have i missed? anyone want to update me with anything at all?

currently having my attachment after 3 days of miserable holidays, so i guess i might as well try to like it then to hate it..

it's consolling that this time round~ the job's 12193861245349286 times better than the last one. it's got better and younger pple there and they are alot of fun, even the 30+s married ladies. real cool!
i like it there.. great pple and quite a good job.. at least i'm doing some office or accounts related stuffs...

downed 2 cups of coffee today.. lesson learnt from yesterday~ almost hit my head on the desk when i nearly fell asleep.. phew..

i guess many of the pple i know online will have finished their holidays, but still good luck to those in the midst of it? i know it's tough but hang in there!@

guess that's my day? what about yours? was it good?

jiayu: when are you coming back to singapore? date and time? msg me or e-mail me?

2003-10-28T09:54:00.000+08:00

i'm currently very tied down by exams

guess many of you out there should suffer the same fate as me :(

well.. good luck on all your exams and i'll see that i'll be back soon! keep checking back!

2003-10-11T14:25:00.000+08:00

what a day~

this entry's for friday, which is of course yesterday :)

1st i got a silly shock at sch in the afternoon yesterday..
it begin when my project members and i went to finish up some work in the computer lab in the poly.

at some point of time i was so tired that i really need a short rest and so i went to close my eyes and found myself drifting into sleep in a normal sitting position.

some 20-25 mins later i woked up to the laughters from some gals in the com lab. blur as i am, i tried to find my friends and shocked to see that they are gone, 'MY GOD' i told myself. "they have left me behind with a class that's about to start with unfamiliar faces!", i thought.

Though panickly, i slowly and steadily picked up my backpack and file, and begin headed for the door with a face that's turned red, leaving behind a class of laughters. it was so "pai seh"!

found my friends outside the lab laughing when they saw me.. argh! idiots i said!

but that's not the climax! they told me they are not 'really' the ones who didn't want to wake me up. they told me that some of the students in that class ACTUALLY told them not to wake me up because i'm sleeping so PEACEFULLY! >:(
stupid SP students! somemore that piggy face of mine when i'm sleeping is like 'malu' to the max already!

so pple becareful not to sleep in class or lectures, you wouldn't know when you will be the next to be left alone ;)

went to study at kallang MAC after sch and met this junior around 6pm. argh~ another mess. i got 'suan' by her till i'm speechless :(

2003-10-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

Fatigue

the title spells it all.. drained of all my essence in life that my mum gave to me (lol what a weird phrase)

argh! tml = eve of doom day

next fri = doom day!

anyway best of luck to all for the remaining days in the week and have a jolly weekend pple!

i'm going swimming on sunday! hoot! finally some training before NS comes along :)
anyone going for the Subaru Imprezza Challenge?

2003-10-05T23:33:00.000+08:00

Lazy Bum

what a lazy bum i've been... well.. here's my week's activities..

had some wonderful CAs and deadline for my elective project is really driving me crazy.

so as to speak... i slept for 3 hrs yesterday and woke up 6+am to send my dad to the airport :(
after that, i went jogging with my siblings at east coast park..(look, i can't believed it myself either) now that my eyes are sore and straining i think i'd better get some sleep after a whole day of activity.

Great to have my bed tonight
i found that i really cannot make it for NAPFA, i'm dead this time round~ PTP here i come :(

2003-09-23T19:45:00.000+08:00

WOrk

argh it's really killing me.. my time sucked dry by bloody thirsty assignments.. what they all say about accountancy year 3... they are all true!

loads of assignments and beloved CAs waiting for me.. can't stay longer.. lastly, hopefully a good week to all.. catch all of ya laterz!

2003-09-21T13:38:00.000+08:00

sucky week...

well.. this week has been busy and tough for me... stupid CAs and dulling of relationships with friends.. :(

sometimes i feel that friendship doesn't need to be proven in the ways of going out.. having fun together.. neither would time cause any difference in it.. somehow, i feel disillusioned in that thoughts now..

anyway i think i had this crash with one of my lecturers this week, it really sucked to the cork.
well.. story begins some 3 weeks ago

i didn't do his tutorial for 2 consecutive weeks and he actually stereotyped me as one of the kind of students who doesn't do his homework and all and he would announce to the whole class that I AGAIN didn't do my work where i did last week.
at the tutorial last week, we were given this 15 mins break which i requested because i haven't have my lunch and my friend need some extra time to finish up his transparency. After eating, friend 'D' and i found ourselves late for the class and when we got back he really blamed us, especially me!, for being late.
So i thought that i was in the wrong and i kept quiet and went back to my seat, that's when he said (and not asked) that i didn't do my tutorial again when i was copying the correct answer on the board. WTF i told myself!

Biggest problem begins the next day. I had this elective conducted by HIM! and so i had this questions and he answered them in a irritating and 'not wanting to talk to me' way. it's as if i asked for that kind of attention.. WTF!

When i was leaving for home that day, i saw him again at the stairway and i took my initiative to say goodbye to him

guess what! he didn't react and brushed passed me! it's either he didn't hear me or he didn't see me! my god i had never anicipated this.. now i don't even know how shall i respond to him next week.. i'm really pissed at it to know that he's one who stereotype pple... shallow idiot.

2003-09-14T13:05:00.000+08:00

Back

how amazing that after such a long break i'm back! wow!... anyway got my class 3 on 28 of aug. i'm exhilarated!@ sadly though, i scratched my dad's car a little on the part top of the rear wheels...

so that teaches all new member of class 3s to be very careful ya? it's dangerous out there on the roads

last heard eunice's getting her class 3 too~ so how did it go?

how are everyone coming along these days? christine's shutting herself out? shihui and xiuhui's getting themselves a break too.. :(

well.. i would like to wish everyone luck in whatever they are doing alright and take care pple ;)

2003-07-28T00:37:00.000+08:00

hi~ well... will be leaving my site soon... hope i've brought at least some reading pleasure to you guys~

heavy sch load and fading interest in blogging have catalyse this decision...

well... all the best to everyone out there~ i'll still lurk around your blogs once in a while and post something alright? take care pple!

2003-07-13T23:48:00.000+08:00

Cyndi

anyone went for cyndi's autograph session at bugis yesterday? wow.. it was so packed with men and women..

it's a pity i didn't manage to get her autograph though.. it's just simply crowded over there

i watched enviously as these 2 girls cheered and smiled happily when they came out to meet their friends at the cinema level at bugis... they were ranting about how some others try to squeeze them out or how lucky they were to be the last few :(

oh well.. i'm not a fanatic but i thought it would be really nice if i have that signature on the album that i bought some time ago..

still... it really is an interesting event and day for me.. never had done such things in my whole 20 bloody life.. spent an afternoon just like that with some anticipation and disappointment

2003-07-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

NEL

the north east line! here i come!

after much procrastination from myself, i finally made way for my lazy body all the way to sengkang!

and after much laziness.. i finally made it here to blog! lol... sorry guys if you ever missed me :OP

was really fun today since it cheered me up quite a bit as i'm not exactly in the best of mood lately.

had a classmate accompanying me today as we checked out the north east line together.

left our footprints at sengkang's compass point, hougang and chinatown when we came outta the station to explore the place.

had baby clam pasta with him at sengkang and 'yong tau hu', 'dian xin' at chinatown...
don't misunderstood.. it was really fun today but there's not even the slightest gayish movement alright? i'm STRAIGHT!

so i guess i'm really tired now...after all that food and travelling... think you guys have to try it someday

nemo's really nice! glad i caught it when it's about to end! wow! loved that silly shivering fish.. lol! he was really really funny!

2003-06-24T12:04:00.000+08:00

Back

hi guys :)

i'm currently back again.. at work now.. eating snake.. the feeling's totally freaky since i'm not permitted to go online :OP
it's been a busy week for me and i've been buzzing like a bee.. buzz buzz.. what about you guys? what have all of you done on your weekends?

last weekend was quite something for me since most weekends for me will be filled with outing with friends, but this time round, i worked as a part-timer at down town east for the 'ultimate arcade challenge'. excited as i was in the begginning but that died down as time passes.. it's really boring to watch TimeCrisis 3 for a whole 12 hrs for 2 & a half day :(

things gets interesting when someone broke a high score that lasted for almost 2 days..

the finals for Initial D ver 2 is the best among my days there.. it's really kinda interesting to watch them race one another
wow :)

is finding nemo nice? anyone watched already? i've watched the hulk already and i think it's quite good :)
as much as i find blogging a chore to myself.. i miss you guys as much

else i would've gone like shihui since she's leaving her blog forever :(

maybe someday i just might leave too...

2003-06-16T21:18:00.000+08:00

busy with life be back soon :OP

2003-06-11T22:59:00.000+08:00

NS = no balls?

all my NS friends are terrified of watching ju-on with me.. :(
well.. i guess it can't be blamed since they are always spending their time with trees and insects in the jungle lol~...

chinese idiom goes like this "huang tian bu fu ku xin ren"
meaning if there's a will there's a way..

so i got companion for the show~ cheers!

how else is watching the show? i don't really want to make a big hooha about the show, just a simple raise of hands will do

times passes so quickly... in just a while.. i've worked for nearly a mth now.. gosh.. soon i'll go back to sch and graduate.. it was only like yesterday that i was thinking of planning my future in poly... and now.. 1 more year and i'm off to NS. i've no plans yet..

there's this arcade competition coming alont on the 21/22 of jun @ downtown east.. anyone joining?

2003-06-09T20:51:00.000+08:00

Alyssa

anyone know who alyssa chia is?
hahaha i'm addicted to her shows~ really good.. the drama series heavenly sword and dragon blade

oh well.. let's talk about places you really wish to go..

i've been thinking about taiwan these days.. hahaha not because of alyssa of course but given the opportunity i would really like to live there for a least 1-2 years..
i think the environment there's quite fun and eye opening..

as for places i wish to take a tour are japan, korea. anything further would be switzerland and auckland i guess..

2003-06-06T23:05:00.000+08:00

Cobwebs

yes that's what it is... my site's filled with it currently... lol~ and i said this to someone before...

sorry for the disappearance but i've been too engrossed with one chinese drama series that i bought recently and too tired to blog after work everyday

how's life for everyone? i really miss you guys :OP

even before i noticed.. the weekend's here again! wow... time really passes fast.. it seems as if it's only yesterday when i was thinking about my attachment and now i've finished 1 mth of it already..

don't ask me about the pay, because it's miserable

great weekend for all i supposed? i saw the site stats and i'm really happy and speechless that some of you still visit just to check me out~ thanks!

2003-05-31T12:04:00.000+08:00

hi everyone! have a GREAT weekend ya? oh no.. i'm sounding chirpy today lol~...

maybe i've been much happier as of lately :)

will be back tomorrow

[off to chalet!]

2003-05-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

feeling sick again today... haven't been blogging for some time... guess you guys have to clear the cobwebs on your entry :P

thought of the day:
"why is it that heroes on shows and movies are always hunks that everyone would really like to get intimate with? does it make a difference if some fat-ass b@stard became the lead of a certain movie and he's the hero?"

[/float to my bed... i'm too sick to continue]

2003-05-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

been tired... don't feel like blogging these days... but i'll still visit the blogs i often go :)

2003-05-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

Decision making

here's a question for everyone of you

given a choice to save up money for a mp3 player or a digital cam

which one would you choose?

nearly lost my sleep again last nite... was dead tired today at work.. some things just keeps bothering you.. some day, some time, some where, and somehow, you would ask yourself," why did you ~~fucked~~ yourself up?
i did.. would you?

[pluggin into: Candy Lu Qiao Yin - hao xing feng shou]

2003-05-21T00:40:00.000+08:00

[pluggin into: Fan Yi Chen - Bai Mu Da]

have really been diggin' into UFM 100.3 i think the station's great.. 933's out for me already... kinda find it boring or not interesting enough..

2003-05-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

Thoughts

deep and heavy...

a tough walk down memory lane last nite... lost my sleep

2003-05-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

what happens next!

i am failing my subjects...
getting my supplementary papers...
now that i have also failed my TP test...

what's gonna happen next?

i did 3 stupid mistake on my test and there goes my licence..

i really hate the word "fail" now... argh! looks like i have to wait another 4-5 mths for the next test...

[Pluggin into: Enigma - Return to Innocence]
this song really smoothes my heart

2003-05-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

Filling...

yup filling's all i did today for my attachment... well... right on the 1st day of work.. one lady told me straight that accountant's job is damn boring and tells me to switch course when i have the chance now -_-

i'm totally exhausted today.. headaches from all the reading of revenue figures for filling and checking purposes... nitez pple... take care of ya eyes... 'cos you've got only a pair :(

2003-05-12T13:07:00.000+08:00

What a Start...

was due for work this morning but instead of being at aljunied, i'm at home!
fell sick yesterday and got myself a MC for 2 days. i would be overjoyed in secondary school if i've gotten myself a MC but not now.. let's just hope they do not deduct my miserable pay. moreover, it's not a good first impression to take MC in the first day of work.. what a bad start.

i'm feeling weak all over now and having headache... gotta rest... argh!

[pluggin into penny dai - shi jian kuai zhuan]

2003-05-11T20:13:00.000+08:00

Stressless!

yes exams finally over though it's not a carefree period for me.. i'm waiting my the letter to my supplementary papers.. suck it

still it's some time for me to take a breather. had a great weekend with family and friends :) met an old secondary school friend at UBI driving center. it's great to bump into friends.

i feeling bloody weak now and am in great doubt on whether i can work tomorrow. i think i ate something wrong on Saturday and it's been torturing me since then~ shall take my temperature in a while's time to make sure i'm SARS-free.

to those of you who are still in secondary school and taking your exams good luck! best wishes from ME!

i've been posted to Aljunied Road for my attachment in a small company i guess. so those of you who stay along that area or have business with that area can freely post me a msg and maybe i can get someone for lunch or dinner, note: it's a 'dutch system' that i'm practising

lastly cheers to a great new week pple :)

2003-05-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

i'm so fucked with my exams
god damn it!
serve me right for slacking like nobody's business, will have to look forward to the supplementary papers now..

2003-05-06T10:15:00.000+08:00

4 more days till i finish all my moronic exams~

2003-04-24T23:50:00.000+08:00

need a break...

hi guys, let me start off by telling you all that i'm getting myself a break from everything except my studies.. let this be the last post and i'm off till the end of the papers alright

something from my heart:" thanks pple who have been listening to me and visiting this page :) i'm really grateful, many thanks to christine, kristine, shiyu, and BENNY!, amber(i still don't know who you are). i'll be back real soon. you guys have been the best and will always be!"

Great Bargains :)

here's today's post..

there's isn't much for me to write about today except that i went out with a good friend of mine to study for a module(subject) that hardly provides me with a chance of passing it.. that's my day.. nothing too interesting..

the thing was.. i had a bad nite yesterday and i'm feeling all so shitty today because of that..

it all start after i posted my entry last night.. as i was lying on the bed waiting for myself to hit the subconscious stage, a rush of anxiety and bleakness hit me like a tsunami.
i soon find myself thinking incoherently. flashbacks stormed in from the back of my brain like a leak in a submarine. pictures! memories! all came into life in that 30 odd min... everything became so real and snapshots of the past flowed one by one.. swiftly but clearly. for that moment, i feft the world was crashing down on me. had a loss of breath and was kinda gasping for air at that time, but my mind was so congested that i didn't even know whether i was in a state of depression or what-so-ever. my heart felt heavy with tons of weight on it that night.
tears i would not drop, heartaches i could not ease. it was a painful journey that night...

i think i would be able to sort out my thoughts by the time i come back so don't worry for me.. i'm strong :) as many depict me as..

there's still much thoughts left inside me... but that's too private to be posted... this is one of the only channel that i can talk about it. some things are just better left inside the heart for it will not go. or maybe i wouldn't let it? but it's not in the will for me to do anything about it. one of the worse night i've been through in my 20 years as an earthling.

take care people and all the best to ya lives! live it to the fullest! but say NO to drugs and smokes :)

2003-04-24T01:01:00.000+08:00

Whole day of nothingness

i've DOOMED i tell ya! slacked my whole day off today... didn't accomplish any shit! damn it....

why have i been posting everyday so late at nite?...
have to change my style tomorrow :)

the path i'm taking looks confusing and dead to me... have been wondering on it several times this week... suddenly this terror gets to me and stays on for a few hours... fear that is.. fear for the future and stuffs like that... wonder if anyone of you get the same thing... but i really fear what's lying on my path of life..

2003-04-23T01:24:00.000+08:00

Study Misery

irritating running nose...
how dare you pester me for one whole day! aren't you tired at all?
i couldn't even concentrate on revision with you around
i wasted 21386325 trees today because of you, you moron.. and what am i going to do now? i've gonna take my running nose medicine and kill you off rapidly! dieeeeeee! you moronic bug!

anyone noticed before that kallang's macdonald's always having D.O.M with pretty young chinese? i think it is one of the finest place to have an affair. ooops... i'm digressing too much... what am i talking about?
2*&54213099*6$2&^!2907#@^*(%^$!

circuit breakdown...
EAT VEG PPLE! cos it's one of the rarest stuffs in singapore now!

2003-04-22T00:26:00.000+08:00

Easter Monday

well.. it's easter monday~ hermm... i think by the time i post this up it's no longer easter right?
oh well..
the day's filled with absolutely nothing except for a visit back to poly to hand in my project~ *dumps that subject off my mind* /sets the teacher's office on fire O.o

feels dead today.. slept in any place and position and any time i liked so much so i amazed myself too!

the stress and pressure is building up all around me as everyday goes by; "i've finished my revision!" these exact words echo in my head whenever i'm slacking.. but i couldn't understand why i still don't feel the urgency when i know my results are one of the bottom few? i think i'm plain lazy and deserve to fail my exams if i don't buck up now.. sometimes i feel that i think too much for my own good and not doing them makes me feel that i'm such a useless piece of shit who does nothing but dream and don't try to realise them. really have to pull myself from all this fascination, it kills me slowly but surely.

to those of you out there who's like me. WAKE UP!@

[edit]Plugging into : Chicago - You're the inspiration[/edit]

2003-04-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

Way to GO!

congratulations to Media Corps actresses and actors
you guys made it happened for the patient suffering kidney failure :)

it's been a great, fantastic and exhilarating performance!

*thanks to pple who made the essential call, you guys are totally wonderful*

lastly have a great easter monday.

2003-04-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

Good Friday

this could be a much anticipated holiday for some of you here :)

Happy Good Friday PPLE

enjoy the day alright?
maybe post a few words here to tell me about the day you guys have?

2003-04-15T22:54:00.000+08:00

Hell of a pain!

damn! i'm suffering from the worst sore throat in my 20 years of life on earth..

sore throat suck! can't eat well.. nor enjoy every food or drink that i like...

went to visit the doc yesterday for fear of contracting SARS..
when the doc asked me what's wrong, the 1st thing that i blurted "SARS" haha
he gave me the 'look' and tested for my temperature while asking stuffs like; whether did i went to SARS infested areas or having contacts with SARS patient.
to my relieve he told me i do not have SARS.. so it's just the fucking painful sore throat plus a little running nose that vanished on first light today.

2003-04-12T14:12:00.000+08:00

That hollow feel, that uneasy feel

flashbacks of times in secondary sch.. so pure so sweet and so carefree.. almost stressless

days filled with wonders and magics.. sweet memories that lingers in the mind, never fading away :)

[edit]i know my title cast an irony on the body, just treat it as it's an error then :) [/edit]

2003-04-10T20:07:00.000+08:00

Is it all that necessary?

Is it necessary to have a gf?

Is it necessary for me to change from cable to Broadband?

Is it necessary to get a degree to succeed in life?

Is it necessary to live life the way others have been in Singapore so that you will not starve?

Is it necessary to give up dreams for reality?

Is it necessary to learn driving?

Is it necessary to love and get loved in life?

Is it necessary for all things to happen in a way that we think it should be?

Is it necessary for this post?

2003-04-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

Chill out

did some chilling out and studies in 'pacific coffee' today.. the place's quite cool with really nice armchairs
great temperature control on a rainy day~ or at least i'm smart enough not to order ice blended on a rainy day like this

nearly bored to death today since i can't be bothered to do up my tutorials at home.. simply no mood for that haha i don't understand it myself either.. but i do know some people who could only study and work at home.

tried calling all 237861234 of my friends but NONE! except for 1 are free and i could only meet him in the evening after his sch to study.. more work to be done on the social aspect of my life... i think i'm a really dull person.

2003-04-07T08:23:00.000+08:00

Excellent

nice weekend i've got
finally got some air after project's dealt with

Movie: the core
not a bad one with reasonable humour

Newton circus:
exp food... nothing else...

Car:
ooOOoo it's sOooO good to have a car >.<

Monday:
shitte.. sch's back.. tests and exams are back

oh well... live up to your dreams pple ;)
hope you guys enjoyed your weekends too!

2003-04-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

Bloated!

ever tried stuffing 2 packets of noodles down your stomach? don't try if you haven't, i'm suffering from retribution now. thanks to my sis! thanks for telling me that you are full when i bought them back... eeww... feel so disgusted now..

too round to move about now.. so i think i'll stop here and get some rest haha..

2003-04-03T08:22:00.000+08:00

Morning

it's a brand new day again.. i'm late.. what am i doing here? i don't know..

sch's gonna start at 9 and i have to travel all the way to dover.. i'm so dead!
not the 1st time now..
feeling crappy but since there's 2 msg of concern, it really does cheer me up~ :) thanks shiyu and christine

you guys ownz!